I’ve had a ton of emotions these last two weeks. My life is changing and I’ve entered into a new season in my life. I have been thinking, remembering, crying, and laughing – and pondering. Pondering what’s next for me. Now what?
I went to school today to volunteer. From a distance, I watched Claudia stand in line, laughing and talking to another child. As they walked off, she turned to me, smiled, waved and walked away. Wow, what happened? Wasn’t she just a baby? Everyone always told me that it happens so fast. I think that in the moment, it seems long, but when that moment passes – it feels like it went by way to fast.
We celebrate our 10 year anniversary in two weeks, I turn 35 next month, I no longer have preschoolers at home. For the last 8 years, my main focus has been caring for my two wonderful girls. Now they are in school and are becoming so independent. Where has the time gone?
The house is very quiet, and I feel a little lost. I used to dream about the day they would both be in school, now I wish they were two again.
I have focused on trying to figure out what I am supposed to do with my life. Does anyone really figure that out? I’ve asked God, and have heard no answer. I believe that He wants me to be exactly who I am right now and be doing what I am doing right now. Supporting my family. So I will take pride in supporting my family, be fortunate for the opportunity, and cherish every minute of it! I must quite longing for the past, pondering the future, and embrace this new season in my life!
2 comments:
You made me cry! I feel a little lost too even though I still have Nathan at home. I am always looking for "something to do", but the Lord has shown me that I need to be content in everything right now. I just need to "be" instead of always doing. Thank you for this beautifully written post. I enjoyed it!
Kristen Waters
You need to have an affair to spice things up a little bit!!
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